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by nana3 on 4/9/2008 at 12:47 pm in Tell Your Story
This has been the most difficult time of my life having to face Breast Cancer and I was one of the lucky ones that it was caught in the early stages but i still had to have a lumpectomy and radiation and its been very difficult to handle in my mind. I don't have alot of people to talk to righ now that would know what i am going through they can say they understand but they really do not. I fill like sometimes i am going crazy and just want to cry all day long. But dont get me wrong i am very thankful this was caught early and i dont have to do chemo thank god but i just can't find it in my mind to accept that i have cancer. I have always been afraid of getting breast cancer and here it is starring me in the face right now and i dont know how to deal with it. But i will find the strength somehow to get through this and go on with my life. I need to find someone who has DCIS and see if they are going through the same feelings that i am so if your out there please let me know.....thanks

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After my dx, it took me 3 and 1/2 months before I cried. As a single mother, I had to be strong for my daughters and also my widowed mother. When I did start crying, I cried for 4 days straight!!!!!!!!! I would think I was finished, then flood gates again!! At the end of day 4, I climbed out of bed and began living again. I have just been dx again- and will go through radiation this time. I guess I'm crazy, but my thought is "BRING IT ON!!" I want to wipe cancer out!!!!!
by HappyGirl
on 4/11/2008 at 5:02 pm
I agree that this can be an emotional roller coaster ride and have said I want off several times!! I got my diagnosis on 3/3 and just had my lumpectomy and sentinel node biopsy last Friday (4/4). I found out on Wed. that my nodes all came back negative (yea!), however the margins were not clear so I am am probably looking at more surgery. I will know more about "the plan" when I see my surgeon next week.
The "C" word is huge and it is hard to wrap your head around it. I still rarely talk about how I "have cancer", it is much easier to talk about "my lump", but hey, we all cope in our own ways. If you need to cry--cry, don't hold back. I had my crying session and I chose to do it alone, because that is just my personality. But whether you cry alone or on someone's shoulder it is a very cleansing experience. You need to do it, and holding back won't help you. I have been told by many how I will be fine because I am a "tough chic" and I am strong. I admit I do have a lot of sass and fight in me and that helps! I am sure that you are strong too Nana3 and you will come through this whole experience just fine. Keep a positive attitude and have faith. Reach out to others. It sounds like we are not too far apart in treatment, although if I need a second surgery that will put a loop in it. Anyway, if you need a sounding board, I'm here. Take care and my thoughts are with you!
by tigerlover
on 4/11/2008 at 7:24 am
Believe me, you are not alone.....so many of us out there are walking in the same shoes. You must keep a positive attitude....I know how hard that is to do! This is a great site to help you through the tough times...don't ever feel alone!
My thoughts and prayers are with you!
by Jeanette51
on 4/10/2008 at 12:36 pm
Nana, I also have DCIS caught early and thank God I do not have to take chemo either. You and I are blessed. I also feel anxious, scared and frustrated. I get sick and tired of thinking about the cancer day in and day out. Everytime I start feeling a little better about everything and get my mind off of it a little, someone will come up and ask about it....and I back up again. We will get through this and we will be better and stronger women. I have just yesterday started on Tomoxifin and will begin radiation probably next week. I dread it all and tend to dwell on it. What I want to do is celebrate it and know that every pill I take and every treatment that I get will put me one day closer to becoming a survivor rather that a patient. Nana...you have cancer....do not let it have you or control you (easier to say than do). Know that you will be blessed by this experience and be able to touch someone else's life and help them. Do some fun things to get your mind clear. My husband....God love him.....bought me a motorcycle. He felt it would be good for me and we could ride the cancer rides together.....it has helped. Do something silly..........you have been given the gift of realizing the importance of making everyday count. God bless you....and know that you are thought of. bj
by BJ SPEED
on 4/10/2008 at 12:32 pm
Nana3, there is no way around it, having cancer is very scary and it evokes an emotional rollercoaster. What helps me the most is to take one day at a time. I have been married going on 43 years to a very supportive husband, and caring family( including grandchildren) and, friends. Once my diagnosis of invasive ductal carcinoma was indicated by a biopsy 3/11/08, I reached ot to this support system and have felt the umbrella of prayers each and every day since. I too planned to have radiation following a lumpectomy on 3/19. However , the surgeon could not get clear margins and I ended up having a third surgey for a mastectomy on 3/28. Now I am undergoing the staging imaging prior to meeting with an oncologist. When I get anxious or imagine dire future scenario's, I make myself take deep relaxing breaths and think positive thoughts. Do not be afraid to cry, it can be cleansing. You will be as strong as you need to be, Draw on the love and strength of your family, friends and faith and you will be able to get through what ever needs to be faced. I will keep you in my prayers and wish you peace.
by Marti
on 4/9/2008 at 9:40 pm
Nana- believe me you are not alone and your feelings are normal. I thought working now would take my mind off breast cancer but it doesn't. I was lucky too in finding out early. It still was a difficult time going through the treatments. Getting up every day for radiation was a struggle even though it was just a few minutes long. I chose chemo so I had 4 months of that too. I pray every day that I feel better and stronger. I don't know what the future holds for me, and we will get through this together. Join a support group at a hospital. It made me feel better talking with the other women.
Love and support..
by catsvette
on 4/9/2008 at 6:12 pm

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