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Just found out I have Breast Cancer, what now?

by KarenM on 4/26/2008 at 12:21 pm in Treatment
Last week I found out I have breast cancer - there are 2 good size masses in my left breast - I don't know how to quite wrap my mind around this news - I understand what this disease is and I have made my appointment to go to the Cancer center for evaluation but I really feel almost like it's not real, as if this is happening to someone else - my friends have all rallied around and they are telling me not to be upset, etc, etc - that's the thing, I'm not upset, I guess you could say I'm numb - I wonder when reality will kick in - on the other hand I want this thing taken out of me right now!! - it's like an alien has taken up residence in my body - people at work that I have told are either treating me like it's not big deal or being overly solicitous, like I am dying - is there something wrong with me? - should I be crying, I know if one of my friends got news like this it would devastate me - I feel so disconnected about the whole thing - am I the only one who felt this way in the beginning?

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Wait until the first chemo treatment it will hit !!! no one wants to belive the could have the c word i didnt want to ..but after it hit so did crying and alot of anger...when u look in the mirror at your self and u have no hair and i mean none no eyelashes or eyebrows it will hit ...I would wear shirts that said breast cancer sucks and hats that said chemo sucks and big pink slippers just to keep up the fight love and support Wanda
by Wanda
on 4/30/2008 at 1:58 pm
I felt like I was watching someone else in a movie or something when I found out about my cancer. Everything was so surreal... the surgery... people bringing food and support... delivery of flowers. It was almost like a funeral or something. I definitely grieved at first, but then I just went thru the motions. I scheduled my surgery for the week after I found out. I wanted to get started with this as soon as possible so I could get this overwith. I, too, think I "woke up" when my hair started falling out a week or so ago. It's all real now that's for sure. I'm looking for any humor I can find in this situation. Just wish I could find humor in my bald head. That just isn't funny. My prayers are definitely with you!!!!
by Ros
on 4/28/2008 at 8:36 am
No, you're not the only one to feel this way. It didn't really hit home for me until 15 days after my first chemo treatment and my hair started coming out. My second chemo treatment was really bad, I was nauseated for over a week, and wanted to just quit the treatments. (That was this last week!!) Today I am finally feeling human, so I'm ready for my next treatment (in two weeks).

It was easy to feel kind of like it was happening to someone else for a little while, but now I know that it is me. I would like to have just had things removed and be done with it, but my oncologist said chemo, surgery, radiation, then reconstruction. I'm just thinking that maybe this time next year I might have something close to 'my life' back.

Keep your head up, find as much as you can to laugh about, let your friends help as much as they can, and read as much as you can. Some how, some way, things will get better. (Of course, I'm having to keep telling myself these things!!!)

Good luck to you!! Thoughts and Prayers are with you!!

Bubbles
by BubblesP61
on 4/27/2008 at 12:50 am

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