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Full Name: amanda pflugradt
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Birthdate: Feb 28
Location: Saint Joseph, Missouri

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on 10/13/2007 at 3:39 pm in General

well since i am no longer speaking to my mother i see no sense in keeping my account here..i want to thank you so much for all the kind words everyone has given me..i guess some people never change and i sure can't continue to deal with the lies and constant drama..i love her but i hate her does that make sense..she is doing very well in her chemo and my grandparents are helping her she also has a friend that is helping her so she will be ok...we are better off this way..again thank you..

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Hey giel...It has been a long time I know and I am so sorry! Imagine my suprise when I ready this journal entry...my personal email is brittim603@yahoo.com...I don't want to lose touch with you so email me anytime please!!!!! Although we haven't talked ina while I think about you a lot. Hope to hear from you again,

Brittany

by Brittany on 11/20/2007 at 10:01 am

There comes a time when everyone has to take responsibility for their actions, regardless of their situation. Yes, cancer is hard but not too hard that you don't treat the ones you love with the respect you want back from them. Maybe at the end of her cancer journey, she will. In the meantime, be good to yourself and be the best Mom you can be to your kids - cherish every moment with them - get rid of the guilt of "giving up" on someone - sounds like you had a lifetime of pain with your Mom. I feel sorry for both of you, mostly her for missing out on having a daughter -

by Lori on 10/15/2007 at 4:48 pm

I do not know where your mom is with her treatment and what meds. she is taking right now. And I do not know how this affects you and the family. I only know how if feels to be the one fighting cancer. Also knows the emotional it is to have cancer and the battle one has to go through to win over the cancer. Your mom needs you more now than she ever has. Maybe if you took up with a support group that can help you. I know this group has helped me alot. Maybe the other supporters in here can help you. Don't give up on your mom or give up on us. someone in here can help you.

by grandma_act7 on 10/14/2007 at 8:59 pm

you do not understand the mental, physical, emotional abuse i have put up with during my 25 years and i have tried and tried and tried...i hoped with all my heart my mom would stop her crazy ways and stop dragging me through the mud and we could try to make a normal relationship..she turns my grandparents against me so not only do i lose a mother i lose them as well...i know this is a hard thing to go through and i have tried to be supportive and ignore the way she is but reguardless of the cancer she is 45 and at some point doesn't she have to learn she can't treat people the way she does, especially me...i am her child..i have children and i would never do or say the things to my children my mother has through the years to me...i was blamed for every bad thing that ever happen to her my entire life and she has told me many times before she only had me because she knew i was her last chance to have kids...i have tried you have no idea how my heart aches for a mother like i see other women have but it's just not going to happen for us.

by amanda214 on 10/14/2007 at 8:35 pm

I would just die if my kids gave up on me while i was going through this, and let me tell u i can be the worse person to be around at times, i told them before chemo to please forgive me for anything i may say for i will not mean it, or for the way i will feel because i can not control it...IF u go to my profile and click on ( amanda) or manny one of them u can see what my daughter has said, hope u can understand and be a little more forgiving it is a horrible thing to go throug, and to leave her side now to me ( sorry ) is not right ...i am sure what she says she does not mean love and support wanda

by Wanda on 10/14/2007 at 7:02 pm

Amanda~ Sorry to hear of the fall out you and your Mom have had. my 2 cents worth..it IS worth the FIGHT to stay in contact with your Mom. If I may,Get the DVD by Andy Stanley THE FIGHT CLUB. and you will see why the FIGHT is worth it.
Praying for you and your mom.

by My HEART is in Michigan on 10/14/2007 at 5:29 pm

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