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covenant
Full Name: betsy
I Am A: Patient
Birthdate: May 12
Location: Union, Maine
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Yep, here it comes again... just when I'm beginning to start feeling human again, day after tomorrow it's Chemo time again! Nice to have something to look foward to, isn't it?
But then, it's just two more treatments, and I'll be through. That's how I'm TRYING to look at it, when actually it's much more of an oh no, here it comes again, kind of feeling. Do I really have to do this again, and again, and again? Really?
It's like having two brains-- the one that looks at all of this with some common sense and logic-- and says "Well just get through this, it's just X many weeks of feeling rotton, and when we're through this..."
And the other brain that feels like a small bunny with a large wolf about to chomp its very large, dripping bloody jaws, down on its hindquarters no matter how fast the bunny has been running. Oh, that wolf is getting close.
The first brain tries to remind me I need this, I managed to get through the first treatment with a modicum of sanity, albiet the fatigue, and we'll talk to the oncologist abot the headaches, etc. before the treatment and see if there are bette ways to handle them. Plus, with the weather this hot, isn't it going to be cooler once my hair comes out?
The bunny darts under a bush, but still hears the wolf breathing.
Carrots anyone?
But then, it's just two more treatments, and I'll be through. That's how I'm TRYING to look at it, when actually it's much more of an oh no, here it comes again, kind of feeling. Do I really have to do this again, and again, and again? Really?
It's like having two brains-- the one that looks at all of this with some common sense and logic-- and says "Well just get through this, it's just X many weeks of feeling rotton, and when we're through this..."
And the other brain that feels like a small bunny with a large wolf about to chomp its very large, dripping bloody jaws, down on its hindquarters no matter how fast the bunny has been running. Oh, that wolf is getting close.
The first brain tries to remind me I need this, I managed to get through the first treatment with a modicum of sanity, albiet the fatigue, and we'll talk to the oncologist abot the headaches, etc. before the treatment and see if there are bette ways to handle them. Plus, with the weather this hot, isn't it going to be cooler once my hair comes out?
The bunny darts under a bush, but still hears the wolf breathing.
Carrots anyone?
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