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Full Name: jessica henderson
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Birthdate: Dec 26
Location: Fontana, California

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on 11/16/2007 at 3:35 am in Treatment

It's after 1 am and i can't sleep tonight. My chemo starts on nov/30th which is 2 more weeks after tonight. My mom is going Israel for one week (she can't get out from this trip and she feels really bad that she can't be there for me on my first chemo day which i really don't mind that she is going there) and my hubby has take his mom for whatever(we don't get along) that he can't get out so, my dad will take me to the hosp.
i have been ready for chemo somewhat emotionally. I am wondering every night why i am still washing my hair that i am gona shave it so soon.I am trying so hard to stay positive but tonight, i just feel so lonely and angry, scared again. My hubbuy got mad me on monday that i was still looking for a business( i sold my bus on may that i am now housewife)and he thinks that i should just rest for next 6 months.i gota get myself busy doing something that i just can't stay home. besides, my hubby will be starting a new department in his work that i don't even know when i will see him(he is peace officer that there will be lots over time)I am just sad now.
i am getting port put in on saturday and i am going to cityofhope cancer walk on sunday. I wasn't going to go cuz my surgery but what the heck!!! any advise for first chemo. anything that i should do, eat,take. thanks ladies.....

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I'm with your hubby and take the time to rest. I thought I could do all after chemo and i was wrong. This is my third round of a/c chemo and 5 days after i can barley type. Some people sail through. I bought some craft projects to do inbetween when I feel better. Make sure you drink alot like gatorade and have popsicles handy

by catsvette on 11/18/2007 at 12:11 pm

Good luck with your treatment. My lumpectomy was 10 days ago. Two oncology appts. next week. Not sure what treatments for me yet. I usally flat iron my curly hair, but, since d/x with bc I wear it curly and enjoying every minute of it.

Prayers and hugs from the O.C. - Irene

by my2sons on 11/16/2007 at 6:55 pm

Drink LOTS of fluids before,during, and after treatments. I took books, magazines, word puzzles, but I mostly fell asleep and didn't get much read.
I had reactions similar to Wanda's. I was so happy to have the port. I don't think my veins would have stood up to the drugs, let alone the blood draws that were done frequently. I didn't have the ability to work thru treatments. I am glad that I took the time off to concentrate on ME getting better.
Many healing thoughts and hugs to you! **** Cindie

by My HEART is in Michigan on 11/16/2007 at 9:50 am

I am in chemo now there is no way i could have worked !!! i give big hand shake to those that did. i have 6 down and am suppose to do 3 more but asked them to change what they were going to do the chemo has worn me down so bad thought this last one was going to kill me, the did a/c 4 times that was bad but got through it but when they did the T i couldnt get out of bed for 8 days was so sick, everywhere hurt and so tired. They said i shouldnt have got this sick off of it i said no more !!!! go to surgery and go from there!!!!Dont think u r going to beable to run a buisness while u r on chemo if they do the ac that makes u brain dead for a while make this time for u to rest and get better believe me u can do it but it is hard...i will be so glad when this night mare is over, i am tired of being tired and sick of being sick !!!! and i am a strong lady and this has been the hardest thing i have ever had to endure please dont put your self into something u have to do ....Wanda

by Wanda on 11/16/2007 at 8:07 am

Jessica - I haven't had chemo (radiation and Tamoxifan for me) but I would suggest maybe getting in to some kind of volunteer work for now. It doesn't necessarily have to be with cancer patients if that is too close to home but it would give you the flexibility that a new business would not. With the holidays upon us there are so many needs for volunteers. Not too long after my surgery I set up a volunteer project with my daughter's scout troop to stuff goodie bags for the walkers in an Atlanta Breast Cancer walk. It was fun and I felt like I was doing something useful. Helping others is a great way to take your mind off of your issues. This might be a good compromise with your husband as well.

Good luck with the port and the walk. Just remember you are fabulous with or without hair. Treat yourself to something fun today. Take care, Julie

by Decaturjulie on 11/16/2007 at 7:35 am

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