National Breast Cancer Foundation, Inc.

Last week I found out I have breast cancer - there are 2 good size masses in my left breast - I don't know how to quite wrap my mind around this news - I understand what this disease is and I have made my appointment to go to the Cancer center for evaluation but I really feel almost like it's not real, as if this is happening to someone else - my friends have all rallied around and they are telling me not to be upset, etc, etc - that's the thing, I'm not upset, I guess you could say I'm numb - I wonder when reality will kick in - on the other hand I want this thing taken out of me right now!! - it's like an alien has taken up residence in my body - people at work that I have told are either treating me like it's not big deal or being overly solicitous, like I am dying - is there something wrong with me? - should I be crying, I know if one of my friends got news like this it would devastate me - I feel so disconnected about the whole thing - am I the only one who felt this way in the beginning?